The only thing that belongs to me is what I experience

I discovered it in health awareness

We build beliefs based on the stories we've been told, and we believe them based on the interpretations we've made. Regardless of where we learned them, whether at home or at school, certain beliefs have emotional components, and sometimes we end up building our perception of reality through repetition.

When negative emotional components live in our mind, we can become ill, and that is what happened to me years ago when I went through a period where I had three operations in a period of eleven months and in the third my vital signs were perfect but the doctor could not wake me up, when I managed to come out of the anesthesia, his words were: you have to seek help, you cannot continue somatizing your emotions... what?

I was shocked and amazed to learn what we are capable of unconsciously doing to our bodies, I simply couldn't believe what had happened to me.

At that moment I didn't understand anything, but that event, along with the doctor's words, made me begin my inner search. First of all, I investigated what somatization means, which refers to an unconscious defense mechanism by which a person, without intending to, converts emotional discomfort into a physical symptom, thus diverting attention from the psychological conflict that generates anxiety to the point of becoming ill.

And when I began my research to find out where the answer to my relapses that year came from, it was when I attended the "Health Awareness" workshop, which minimally involves self-knowledge of our condition in the dialectic, health, illness.

And indeed, my body was struggling with a deep-rooted belief that came from what should be, which I didn't want to admit, and yet it acted out of repetition because that's what I was taught, and I thought that what should be couldn't be disobeyed.

Today I know that after a certain age, we are truly built by free will.

For this, I want you to know that there is a dictionary-like catalog that covers all the diseases linked to emotions, analyzing them from "A to Z", written by Martha Sánchez Navarro with whom I took the course, and when I got to the letter that described my condition, I had an immediate answer and from a thought that had been in my mind for years, I transformed it into consciousness.

I knew that what was happening to me was because I was in a place where I didn't want to be but had to be. I return to the beginning of this column, the only thing that belongs to me is what I experience , and I decided to break with the limiting idea and experience my life where I wanted to be.

Soon after, and since then, I have lived my experiences by paying more attention to decisions, and if along the way I happen to feel pain or illness, I return to the catalog and begin my process of identifying where the restlessness of my being originates.

It sounds easy, but precisely because it is so difficult to identify the root of the disease and recognize where it comes from, it becomes a painful process, and fears begin to conspire against themselves.

But I also learned that recognizing self-love gives us the strength to break that cycle and rebuild a new life path. Maybe it happens to us more than once, and if that has to happen again and we have to start over, let's explore it as many times as necessary, knowing that the reward comes with stabilizing our health.

The positive emotional components that live in our minds create a life that flows with the traditions we choose to repeat because they match the identity that governs us as people.

Let us try to inherit the recognition of free will for future generations.

With love: Marcela.

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